Across the Universe

It has been a ROUGH couple of weeks, everyone.

Let me tell you, graduating (or not...) is not an easy process to go through. Suddenly coming home for what seems like forever, being a little trapped, being fooled into thinking it's just summer vacation... it sucks.

I found a temporary job which, for the moment, looks like it's going to be a lot of fun. I'll be teaching theatre to kids at a camp in a neighboring town, ages 8-14 for about six weeks. I'm so excited to get to share what I've learned and loved about theatre with young people- let's hope they're as excited as I am.

Unfortunately, the battle of the dueling philosophies continues. Oh, have I not told you this story yet? Well, that's going to be a separate post. There is FAR too much information to squeeze into this one. But trust me, I have been jerked around one-too-many times by the good old crew over in the Philosophy department at MSU. Trust me, I will be pulling NO punches in my description of that fiasco, especially considering the fact that I have the entire thing well documented.

So for the time being, just know that I am slowly but surely solving the problem, trying to be the better man, but taking no prisoners. This one has been a particularly nasty fight, but I have faith that I'll be the one coming out on top in the end. No homo.

Ok, yes homo.

<3
Peace

A New Day

So much is happening!

-I've recently signed with my first agent, Renee Glicker of About Artists Agency, or "Triple A", as I've been calling them, since hopefully they are going to give my career the much-needed roadside assistance it's been warranting.

-I am (hopefully) graduating from Montclair in May. I can't even discuss this right now. All I will say is that A) The worst thing to ever happen to me was getting a liberal arts education, and B) Montclair State University is a gallivanting, cursing, cut-throat bunch of highway robbers. But good Karma, I wish them well (-_-)

-I broke up with my boyfriend of about 7 months in April, and it's just been very difficult. Wishing him well, feeling guilty, and then lonely on top of it, so it's been a rough month.

Here's to hoping the coming days will bring resolution, good news, and more frequent blog posts =D

<3
Peace

And Isn't it Ironic...

Today was a very difficult day.

To tell someone you love them is both difficult and amazing. To tell them that you love them, but you are not in love with them is just difficult.

I'm a bit worn out. But if I've learned one thing today, it is that you must be honest with the people you love. Even when it is painful, it would be an injustice to them as well as to you not to share your feelings. Even though it hurts so badly right now, I have faith that we'll both come out of this one ok.

 <3
Peace

Love Is

Love is fleeting and quiet. It is healing and reaffirming. It is necessary. It is not vital. Love is constrained by limitlessness.

Right now, love is hiding.

<3
Peace

And He Comes Crawling Back...

I've decided, for a number of reasons, that I'd like to keep posting here for a while.

I switched to Tumblr for a while, but found that I was not as big a fan of its layout as I had been originally.

So what's new on the news front? Just about everything. I'm up to my eyeballs in stress, but staying positive. Preparing my rep book for the real world, taking 21 credits, trying to get a handle on myself as a performer, and making plans for the future.

Oh, and I've got a (mostly) new boyfriend, RJ, who is going with me to Provincetown in about 2 weeks.

Life could certainly be worse. I'll give you a more detailed post later!

<3
Peace

Everything in Life is Only For Now

So much is going on.

I'm now maintaining another blog (http://theactorknits.tumblr.com) which is a sort of sequel/prequel/same-time-equal to this blog. I think it's easier to follow/find people on Tumblr, and more of my friends are on there, so I started one. I'll be linking between the two when there are important posts.

Sweeney is over, and I'm a little sad that it came and went so quickly. How do you rehearse a show for two months and perform an entire run in less than a week? Seven shows- that's it. Seven shows in five days. And it's such a huge show, I would say I was only physically able to be fully present for four or five of them. What a workload. I still loved it, and it was one of my favorite performances to date.

There are so many stories, from getting to die onstage when they couldn't close the barber shop fast enough, to accidentally beating Vince (the actor playing Anthony) with my cane onstage. But the best stories are the ones that are practically not stories at all- they're moments. Moments when I felt alive onstage. Moments when I was pursuing an objective, living in my character's shoes. I can honestly say that I'm finally learning to live onstage and to work in a completely new way.

It's thrilling to know that I'm taking strides forward. I'm learning about myself as a performer every day. I'm so grateful for my amazing teachers and the people who have been so supportive. I know that I struggle with my ability to feel confident in myself, in a lot of ways. But I also know that I have to believe in myself, because if I can't, no one else will.

Who knows where the roads may lead me in my life, but I'm finally beginning to feel hopeful that they might go at least in the vicinity of where I'd planned. I guess I'll just have to ride the wave as far as I can.

<3
Peace

 

Glad, as Always, to Oblige My Friends and Neighbors...

Just had to post this picture of my UNBELIEVABLE costume in Sweeney Todd.

I know the posts have been sparse, but let me tell you, it's not because I've been lazy. On the contrary, I've been quite busy, but once we get to tech on Friday, maybe I'll post a few fun stories and anecdotes from recent events.

But how freaking cool is this costume??? Please ignore the laundry machines in the back, this was taken in the costume shop during a fitting...

Right?!?!?! Thank you Deb Otte for the most amazing costume ever. Seriously, the woman is a genius. I can't wait to post pictures in makeup/on the set. Once I get some production shots, I'll be sure to share.

<3
Peace